I told myself this time would be different. This time, I’d keep the promise — the one whispered at 2 a.m., the one written in the margins of a planner I never opened past March. But here I am again, standing in the wreckage of my own half-truths, pockets full of alibis I don’t even believe.
And still, I let it happen. Because failing a test I never studied for is easier than admitting I was afraid to try. Because betraying my own word feels safer than the silence that follows a kept one. i cheated myself like i knew i would lyrics
So I add another scar to the tally, another ghost to the back of my mind — a version of me who kept going, who didn’t turn left when she knew she should have gone straight. I told myself this time would be different