You might find yourself talking to him. Out loud. In the car. In the shower. This is not crazy. This is a love that didn’t die just because his body did.
You will never be the woman you were before. That woman died alongside him. But you are becoming someone new: a woman who has seen the abyss and climbed out. A woman who carries her husband in her heartbeat, not just her memory. While this journey is yours to walk, you do not have to walk it alone. If you find that you cannot eat for days, if you are having thoughts of harming yourself to be with him, or if the fog never lifts—please reach out to a professional. Call a crisis line. Find a widows' support group. mourning wife
Then, the crowd leaves. The meals stop coming. The phone stops ringing. You might find yourself talking to him